Operations, anithetics and recovery oh my

At the end of June 2016 I was relived of the cyst that has been bothering me. This made me happier, but involved being very sick for a while because both me and legira have bad reactions to knock out drugs still managed to go home the same day but was one of the last to leave even though I had gone for the op at 11am. But I have recovered well my scars are minimal even with the surgeon having to cut a bit further at the belly button due to a previous op. Still have a bit of internal scar pain sometimes but considering they found endometriosis it's not surprising that it is happening. 

On my sisters cyst or two I should say, the large one was removed on Christmas Eve but the surgeon decided that a wait and see approach should be taken on the other as it is in a difficult spot. The large one was fluid filled (2.1 litres) and nothing to worry about. She is doing much better as being able to eat is a good thing!

And she is back

So I kind of had an enforced break from a lot of things as change of medicine, dealing with the fall out from my serious depressive period and concentrating on my CBT had me busy for a while. Then I was getting better and planning my trip to EasterCon when I began to get a pain in my side. I've had problems on that side for a while now and just put it down to annoying but will go away in a bit like normal only it didn't and I ended up in hospital with suspected appendicitis. I didn't have appendicitis but I do have a cyst on my ovary. Was told take the antibiotics for the infection you didn't know you had and hopefully the pain will go away. Well it didn't! I am not used to this taking painkillers every day and hoping that the pain will not stop me from doing something.

I made it to EasterCon and had a very good time, Seanan McGuire is lots of fun and a ball to listen to talk about all sorts of things including diseases, snakes and lizards, newt bothering and Maine Coon cats. I also took part in a knitting workshop (I crocheted :D ) and a brooch making class which I really enjoyed. I came back with about 20 or so books, a lovely Armour plate ring and a necklace watch with an octopus on it. But I had to take my painkillers on time or I was going to be hurting/not able to do things.

Now I feel a bit of a wimp for complaining about my pain for Legira (my sister) has a bad knee and goes through this everyday and has done for at least five years now. My problem will be relatively easy to sort (either remove the cyst or the entire ovary) but hers will not go away or be an easy fix the only way currently is a knee replacement and she is deemed too young and the problem not bad enough to do early. So I spent today in bed for most of it because the pain was bad and I really should have done things but I want to be in good shape for tomorrow as it is H's birthday and I want to be able to at least be up and about!

She Breaks Just Like a Little Girl (Dealing with Depression post)

I managed three of the four weeks of my work experience but at the beginning of the fourth my brain said no more, in a curled up on the floor in tears and couldn't stop kinda way. It all got a bit much, I felt exhausted all the time, I was expected to be someone I really at not, to look for work when I wasn't at work, cleaning, cooking or the other hundred and one things I felt needed to be done.

Then I went for an interview I wasn't great but thought I'd be okay, well I wasn't right. I ended up on Blossom Street in tears after self harming on the bus and rang my friend who quickly came to me and whisked me away to a quiet place so I could put the fragments of myself together. I went to the doctors and the doctor who saw me gave me the pull yourself together you will be fine talk, here is a sick note for four days. I later saw one my usual doctors and sorted something out that was better.

Then the day after that I got a call to arrange my CBT appointment after months of waiting. We are discussing my various things and she is very nice and helpful. We are working together well and it's nice to have a non judgemental person, one of the other people I've talked to tended to be a bit oh you should do this or that but she is more the "are you comfortable with that".

Four weeks as a Govement Slave

So I've been 'volunteered' for mandatory work experience which for me means I'm working in a shop as a retail slave. I haven't done any till work yet just filling and facing up with a little cleaning thrown in for good measure. The managers seem okay and the peons nice. But I really don't like working for nothing even a token amount for attending would have been nice.

So for six hours a day I am on my feet working hard, then I am expected to look for work as well. My feet hurt, I ache from head to toe and I'm so knackered I just want to sleep the rest of the time.

The Wet, the Crowds and the burgers

We went to to Leeds on Saturday to the White Rose Shopping centre, it was pouring down and we ended up sharing an umbrella to the centre itself from the car. We ended up in Build a Bear as we tend to when we go there Sis wanted to get Rarity from My Little Pony which they are currently doing. I ended up coming home with a white bear who I have named Marc as he is an Almond Cub...

It was very busy and we had never seen it so crowded combination of Saturday and rain I guess. After being in a couple of crowded shops my brain tried to freak out so I sat down for a bit with an audiobook on my ipod and shut my eyes for a bit and concentrated on that, which helped calm me down.

After a peek in a shop or two we then went to the Handmade Burger Co who do very nice burgers and chilled out there for a while chatting and generally being silly. Managed to pick up a few bits for my Sis who like myself has a birthday shortly must be something to do with us being twins.

I Think I've Been Domesticated!

When I was younger I wanted to do everything and go everywhere as all teenagers do. Now I am in my thirties and I am happy that I am getting a new washing machine and my ambition is to have a little home with my partner and be his housewife. Admittedly a housewife who plays MMO's or Xbox but you can't have everything ;) can you.

But at the moment I am happy to clean my kitchen, make sandwiches for my partner to take to work and dinner for my family and would like a steam cleaner as the one I borrowed from my dad got the floor so clean. Still need to work on the cleaning the rest of the flat though. Well my next project is giving the bathroom a good clean, which shouldn't be too hard as there isn't that much to do in there, I think but I'm sure I'll find a few other things to do as I go through there.

Sunny days

I have been enjoying the last couple of days, the sunshine has been lovely and I managed to get out in it for walks, one to the local shops to get a few bits and one with my mum to Bachelor Hill which is near my home. You get such a nice view and on a clear day, like Sunday you can see all the way to the hills and you can see the white horse. Took my camera and took a few photos too.

Talking of photographs, a couple of my pictures have been on display at the City Screen cinema as part of the Love Arts festival. They are on display until Friday 30 May on the first floor.

In other news I've lost four pounds so far in my quest to get down to more reasonable weight, so go me!